From Shamefulness to Strong heart

The most humiliating and embarrassing incident of my life happened. Now it has been 2 years. My own wife left me and married someone else. I waited for her at home without knowing anything. When I found out about all this, I was devastated, I didn’t want to be alive, I was just numb. What happened in my life was so humiliating that I could not see or talk to anyone. Two years ago I thought I would never survive this destruction. The people around me were looking at me with sadness and pity. I didn’t know what to do with my life then.

I could no longer enjoy the work I was enjoying so I quit. So I left my home and traveled to another country and I think that was a small beginning of my change. I did not bring a friend or a relative to share my pain with me, all alone I tasted the pain and knew that there was no other witness than God. I still remember the faces of those who were smiling so happily thinking that I was a normal person at that time and it was a relief to my pain. So the days where I could not remember my pain slowly came in my life.

At the same time my wife was running around for money and telling all kinds of lies to many people to get money using my name. All that is not my subject anymore. I started living my life the way I wanted it to be. I was trying to implement even the smallest things that I wanted. I drove the car alone and everything went where I wanted. Some people reading this till now might think that my life is still going through a tragedy, not at all. it is changed.

A new special feeling has came in my life. A sprout is starting to sprout in my frozen heart. But now there is a difference, I am only waiting for God’s timing and decision. I am well convinced that I am happy and enjoying myself and that I do not need the help of another person other than God. But i know for God anything can possible. I proud the way i survived.