Feeling scared at times when walking with a lot of desires in mind. When a lot of thoughts come, instead of standing in the present, only thoughts for the future come. There is a lot of frustration because desires do not happen on time. What I am trying to do now is to submit my desires to God and try to have no thoughts in my mind. I want to live in a way where there is nothing to lose. I see it as a blessing when desires come true. I will sincerely try to live by putting God first and doing the duties I have to do in the present. Even though I have nothing in life, I am now in a state of fearlessness. I understand that I will never go hungry as long as there are people love me around. But i have hope, faith and trust in God that he will not give up on me ever. Even at darkest time in my life.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me. Psalm 23:4
CANA 