Honest love, faithful love is very hard to take away from the heart. Many can advise and motivate but it is very difficult to take away what has fallen into the heart. Tried to forget everything but tried to forget was the most painful. Everything I tried to forget continues to be a stabbing pain in the heart all the time. No one else can climb into my heart anymore. Only God has a place there now. No matter how much pain, no matter how great the pain, it will end when my body joins the soil. i realized that there is love on earth that no one else understands. All I can do now is tell God what I did and what people did to me. I do not know what to do tomorrow, I do not know what to do next. Accept what God gives you no matter what. There is no place for pain. Be prepared to accept it no matter what. My decision is to do good things in life and to protect and nurture those around me. And then my prayer to God.