For a few days, I could not think or write. I’m going through a lot of pain. I have never cheated or hurt anyone in my life. The foundation of my life is my church. I had never known cheating and deception in my life until a few days ago. I now even understand the pain it can cause. Even the death of a loved one in our life does not cause much pain After a while, the pain in the mind will go away. The pain of being cheated on by the most loved person in our lives is immense. I just could not understand why I could not get that pain out of my heart. It is very difficult to understand for others, only those who have been deceived will understand. My only prayer is that no one will be deceived in love. One of the saddest things about this is that no matter how much we are deceived, we still continue to love. My heart is broken, I know Jesus is close to those who are broken and hurt. I cannot even call on my God with my broken heart. That person is putting photos of the happiness of cheating on social media. But I cry every day. I often feel like I have to die because of this pain of mine. Love, trust, understanding, happiness, money, health I lost everything in my hand because of this person. My heart is silent toward God. There seems to be nothing to ask of God. Jesus, I do not know how to live.
Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him. Psalm 62:1
6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. John 14:6a
Dear Jesus, show me the way…I need your grace…I do not even know what I want to do with my life…Forgive my sins….I am lonely in life and there is no one around me…give me peace of heart….