It’s been 9 years since my mom left. I didn’t remember my mother after my wedding because of my wife’s love. My wife looked at me like my mother cared for me. Now my wife is not around so I feel totally isolated. Today is Mother’s Day and I’m suddenly feeling lonely. My mother died of cancer in 2012.
I still have fond memories of my mother not sleeping near me when I was sick. I had to take 3 or 4 months off from school so my mother used to sit outside the classroom and write down all my class notes. I have been fought with my mother, but my mother has stood by all my wishes. My mother was with me when I started going to the church choir. You don’t have to think that my mother likes to sing. There were 3 or 4 girls in the choir. My mother was afraid that I might have a relationship with them. My mother thought I should not make a mistake. It’s because of my mother that I still do not fall into a mistake. My mother and I used to go to choir practice together. Those are my good memories.
When I had to go to Chennai for my studies, my mother came with me. That was the last time I saw my mother healthy. When I was put in a hostel, my mother gave me some money without seeing my dad. I lay there crying because of the distress. I’m sad even when I think about it now.
My parents went back home. Dad talked to me every day through the phone. For some reason, my mother did not talk to me like that. Suddenly, I had a dream that something was wrong with my mother. A few days later my dad called me home. I was going home with a lot of prayers. I was devastated when I ran home and saw my mother. My father told me about my mother’s situation without showing sadness I went into the room and began to cry.
Then I would come home several times a month to take my mother to the hospital. It was a very difficult time. My mother would not allow me to enter the hospital. Maybe she doesn’t want to show me the struggle inside the hospital. Thus, through prayer, the mother became cured. The doctor had told us to be careful though. Then there were happy days. My mother used to talk to me from time to time about my career.
At that point, I got my first job. Then, sometime later, my mother got cancer again. A few days before my mother died, I left my purse with my mother and left. It had a photo of my current wife in it. One day my mother got sick again but still, my mother told me to go to work. So when I went to work and sat there, later my younger brother called me and told me that our mother was gone. I was devastated and felt like I had no one left and the only one who loved me was gone.
I still miss my mom a lot. So a few days later, my dad called me and said. My mother saw a photo of a girl in my wallet and my mother instructed, she is enough to be our daughter-in-law for our son’s marriage.
Even before my mother died, my wish was blessed by my mother. That love is still in my mind. My mother is still alive in my mind.
“Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you. Exodus 20:12
Happy Mothers Day.